Delusional
or just driven? The athlete, last seen on September 10 in Studio City,
California, wants to clean up and play pro basketball again per a
Tuesday report
He wants
to regain his glory: The athlete, seen here in May with Memphis
Grizzlies player Zach Randolph, had difficulty standing out as a Clipper
The source says he told a friend, 'Everyone wants to see me fail, but I'm not gonna let that happen.'
Though the athlete thinks he can clean up and have a second chance, it looks like he may get knocked down again.
Also on
Tuesday RadarOnline reported that video taken from a California Highway
Patrol car's dashcam during Lamar's August 30 DUI arrest could surface
in the event the case goes to trial. His arraignment has been postponed
until October 10.
How he's deteriorated in one year: Healthy and handsome in August 2012 (left) and sickly thin and sweaty in September (right)
Broken
promises: He reportedly wanted to take his wife Khloe Kardashian to
Santa Barbara for their four year wedding anniversary on September 27
but that didn't happen
There
could be a lot of embarrassing moments on that tape which starts when
the star is driving under the speed limit on the freeway. There is also
video of Lamar, 33, refusing to take a chemical test at the police
station.
As far as
his return to the game, that seems entirely unfeasible as he has been
doing drugs and not working out, according to several reports, and most
teams are full and already in training anyhow.
'Lamar Odom is drugged out of his head,' reports TMZ.
The site
claims that the people who have been spending time with Lamar - who has
not been photographed since he dined with a friend at Teri Sushi in
Studio City on September 10 - claim 'his drug problem is out of
control.'
'One of his drug dealers alone has sold him thousands of dollars in coke,' reports TMZ.
The site also claims that Lamar was 'using while on the Lakers and on the Mavericks.'
They add
that 'he was off the rails using drugs' just months before joining the
Clippers 'but cleaned up enough to get through the season.'
The
article also touches on the Sixth Man's state of mind, insisting he is
'full-on paranoid now' and that 'he believes people are trying to set
him up to get caught.'
A rare Khlomar sighting: The couple were all smiles at Kim Kardashian's baby shower in June
There are
also reports from HollywoodLife that the NBA star is upset that his
drug issues will be brought up on an upcoming episode of Keeping Up With
the Kardashians.
'It’s evil, it’s horrible,' a source tells the site.
'He doesn’t want to be part of that. Some things should really just be left private.
'How’s
Lamar suppose to feel better, you know, get his life together, when all
this sh** is being broadcast on television?' adds the friend.
Meanwhile, his relationship with Khloe, 29, doesn't seem to be getting any better.
Though
she wore her wedding rings while out in Sherman Oaks, California, on
Monday to shoot her show Keeping Up With the Kardashians, she did not
celebrate her four year wedding anniversary on September 27 with her
husband.
She also
has been tweeting several disturbing messages such as, 'She smiles to
mask the pain in her heart. She laughs to conceal the tears in her
eyes.'
Further
confirming that she's creating distance from her estranged spouse, in
September the beauty dropped the name Odom from her Instagram and
Twitter accounts.
Khloe has
reportedly been staying with her mother Kris Jenner at her Hidden Hills
home and has been seen at the Tarzana mansion she used to share with
her husband.
Though
Lamar reportedly took a trip to Palm Springs in late September, it's
believed he is currently staying at his apartment in downtown LA.
The rings
are on: On Monday the reality star stepped out with her wedding bling
in place as she showed up at Stanley's in Sherman Oaks to shoot a scene
for Keeping Up With the Kardashians
